Well, it is official now, I no longer have any children that believe in Santa anymore. My youngest is 12, and I know he pretty much knew there was no Santa awhile ago, but it was flat out confirmed for him at school the other day.
I have mixed emotions about this. On one hand, I always felt like a big fat liar when I talked about Santa to my kids and put out cookies and carrots for Santa and the reindeer. On the other hand, I loved the excitement the kids had about Santa. I never held it over their heads that Santa was going to blow them off at Christmas if they didn’t behave though. We just enjoyed the ‘fun’ part of Santa. I often wonder how anyone older than 3 can really believe in Santa if they really sat and analyzed the whole Santa story. But, I guess that maybe it is just human nature to not want to question all that is fun and good. Plus, I wonder if some kids worry that if they no longer ‘believe’, then presents will no longer be left under the tree.
I will say though, my life is much easier now that nobody ‘believes’ in Santa anymore. My daughter can just show me something she thinks she might like in a catalog and not worry about little ears overhearing that mom buys the Christmas presents. If we are low on money I will be able to say ‘sorry kiddos, Christmas is going to be light this year’. (Not that it is ever very heavy in the first place.) I will be able to make noise with reckless abandon on Christmas Eve as I arrange presents under the tree without worrying that the kids might hear all the racket and get suspicious. I have more Christmas freedom, and I will be able to go to bed earlier on Christmas Eve! Plus I won’t have to take a bite out of all those cookies left on the hearth when I am already stuffed from a giant Christmas Eve celebration. (I never cared about presenting the illusion that the reindeer bit into the carrots. I just whipped them outside and said the reindeer must have eaten them all.)
So, even though my kids seemed to have outgrown yet another phase of childhood, it isn’t all bad. I just keep trying to do my best to embrace the positives and enjoy all the great things each phase brings. However, I don’t know that I will be so upbeat when they have all left for college!